CGBTS Chapter 31

Chapter 31 – Not out of Kindness

Novel Title: あの夏から戻れない (Can’t Go Back to That Summer)

Author：宮緒葵 (Miyao Aoi)

Illustrator：笠井あゆみ (Kasai Ayumi)

Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)

Protagonists: 櫛原夏生 (Kushihara Natsuo -MC) & 四辻柊 (Yotsutsuji Shuu -ML)

*Please read at knoxt.space, the original site of translation. TQ*

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Clank, clank. Clank, clank.

Hearing a noise in the distance, Natsuo opened his eyes. He had been dressed in a yukata that he did not remember changing into. For some reason, his body, lying on the futon, felt terribly heavy.

After struggling to turn toward the source of the sound, Natsuo saw Shuu’s back in the hallway leading to the veranda. He appeared to be closing the storm shutters on the other side of the glass doors. Could storms come even to this sealed-off otherworld?

“…………Natsuo?”

Perhaps sensing Natsuo’s gaze, Shuu slowly turned around. The tall figure emerging in the dimness――the moment Natsuo saw that his hands appeared to be stained bright red, an eerily realistic image flashed through his mind.

Himself fleeing through the mountains. Shuu mercilessly pursuing and violating him after he had been caught in a trap……

“Natsuo, are you all right!?”

Shuu rushed over to Natsuo as he staggered and collapsed onto the futon, then knelt beside him. He helped Natsuo sit up and gently embraced him as though he were handling something fragile.

“Ah, ……huh?”

The instant he was enveloped in that warmth, the ominous image melted away without leaving a single fragment behind. He could no longer remember at all what it had been about.

“…Sorry, Shuu. I just… felt a little dizzy…”

“There’s no need to apologize. The poison from the Sacred Flower has only just worn off. Don’t push yourself, and get plenty of rest.”

The hand stroking his back was as gentle as ever, yet somehow different from usual. The same went for the voice whispering to him. Until yesterday, it had never possessed this honey-like sweetness that now dripped from it, clinging to his eardrums.

“…The Sacred Flower’s… poison?”

“The Sacred Flower poison that was mixed into the bento Etsuko made. You ate it three days ago. Don’t you remember?”

That question served as a trigger, bringing back his memories of when Etsuko had visited.

…That was right. She had told him that she had given up on Shuu and decided to marry another man, and that before doing so, she wanted to apologize to Natsuo so she could have no regrets left behind.

Unable to refuse her outright, he had eaten the bento Etsuko had prepared herself. His body had become unbearably hot, and then…

“…!”

With a sudden shove, Natsuo pushed away Shuu’s broad, thick chest. Startled by the unexpected resistance, Shuu’s green eyes widened. But when he noticed that Natsuo’s face had turned bright red, he smiled faintly.

“Good. So you hadn’t forgotten after all.”

“H-how could I… forget that…?”

The Sacred Flower contains a terrifying poison capable of threatening a person’s life, but depending on the amount, it can also have the same effect as an aphrodisiac. Driven by a maddening heat, Natsuo had begged Shuu for help, and Shuu had answered him. It had been his first time ever sharing his body with someone, yet they had fucked over and over again like beasts, throughout the entire night…

…I-I, with Shuu…!

The mere fact that he had shared his body with his childhood friend was unbearable enough, but remembering how wanton he had been last night made him want to die from embarrassment.

He had clung to Shuu of his own accord, thrusting his hips and begging him to release inside him… and it hadn’t happened only once. Over and over again—until merely pressing down on his stomach was enough to make foamy semen gush and overflow from his asshole.

“Natsuo…”

That was right. Shuu had been watching him then, too. With eyes filled with a mixture of desire and affection, he had watched Natsuo sob as the semen he had been made to accumulate was allowed to spill freely from his thrust-out backside, his buttocks trembling. When Natsuo had felt lonely because his belly was empty, Shuu had gently lifted him onto his lap and impaled him once again with his virility, showing no sign of weakening…

“U-uh…!”

Unable to bear looking at Shuu’s face any longer, Natsuo pulled the futon over his head.

If there had been a hole, he would have crawled into it. And while he was at it, he wanted to bury himself deep underground. No matter how much the Sacred Flower poison had affected him, what he had done was just… just…!

“Natsuo, Natsuo.”

From above the futon, Shuu gently patted his head over and over. The soothing, childlike tone of his voice only made Natsuo feel even more mortified. Shuu had merely gone along with him to help rid his body of the poison, yet he had ended up behaving so shamelessly.

“Just so you know, I didn’t take you into my arms out of simple kindness.”

“…Huh?”

“It’s true that I wanted to help you. …But the moment I saw you after the Sacred Flower had gotten to you, I thought that this was my chance to have you. To fuck you and leave as many marks as I could, showing that you were mine.”

Shuu’s hand traced from Natsuo’s head down to the nape of his neck and then along his back. The touch should have been gentle, yet it somehow felt indecent to Natsuo because of what he had experienced. He knew just how lewdly those hands could draw out Natsuo’s sensuality. …And how sweetly they could caress him.

“When you begged me to fuck you roughly, I thought I’d gotten what I wanted. Since it was your first time, I should have at least been gentle with you.”

“Wha… …what?!”

Unable to help himself, Natsuo poked his face out from under the futon and grabbed the knee of Shuu’s yukata. He had no memory of saying anything like that.

“That’s… a lie, right?”

“Why would I lie at a time like this?”

According to Shuu, Natsuo had apparently begged him to take him from behind without even preparing him, to let him suck his erection, and to let him expel the semen he had accumulated in front of Shuu. …Of course, Natsuo had absolutely no recollection of any of it, but there was no way Shuu would tell such lies.

Shuu gently stroked the head of the stunned Natsuo.

“It’s not your fault. Back then, the Sacred Flower had made you lose control.”

“B-but… you stayed with me through all of that…”

“I told you, didn’t I? It was a fortunate opportunity for me. …I was so happy I could have died. Even if you ended up forgetting it all, you had wanted me. That alone made me happier than anything.”

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*Translator’s Note: Yup. They were wild… -K

*P/S: Happy Halloween!!!

Next update: 2026.11.01

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