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AP Chapter 80

Fear

Title: 顶级掠食者 (Alpha Predator)

Author:水千丞 (ShuiQianCheng)

Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)

Protagonists :沈岱 (Shen Dai -MC), 瞿末予 (Qu Moyu -ML)

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​​After folding the saliva towel, Shen Dai went to find other things to do. Anyway, it was impossible for him to stay there for Qu Moyu to stare at.

Qu Moyu followed Shen Dai around the house, asking about this and that and their functions. Many things about newborns are very strange in his eyes. Soon, he sneaked around to Qiuqiu’s bedside.

The child-rearing nanny felt that Qiuqiu’s sleeping position could be improved, so he was wrapped tightly with only one head exposed.

Qu Moyu thought it was a little funny. The little thing that was always showing its teeth and claws and crying now looks like a big sushi roll where he can’t even move his hands and feet. It’s very interesting. He couldn’t help but stretch out his hand and lightly poke Qiuqiu’s fat cheeks with his fingertips.

Shen Dai came out of the bathroom and saw Qu Moyu’s movements, he whispered in between his breath, “Don’t touch him!”

Qiuqiu’s two eyebrows twitched like caterpillars and then his eyelids began to tremble. He had just opened his mouth while whimpering and drooling, but suddenly his mouth opened wide, and he began to cry in his sleep.

Qu Moyu retracted his hand in fright, took two steps back, and glanced at Shen Dai with a guilty conscience.

Shen Dai hurriedly walked over, patted Qiuqiu’s little chest and whispered, “Shh, darling. Darling, it’s alright. Go to sleep.” He released a soothing pheromone and said to Qu Moyu, “You stand still. Far away.”

Qu Moyu touched his nose and retreated to the wall dejectedly.

Shen Dai bowed his waist and patted Qiuqiu lightly with one hand. He pulled the bangs that were hanging in front of him behind his ears with his other hand, revealing a clear jaw and a long, fair neck. When he looked at Qiuqiu, the corners of his eyes curved. With a smile on his face, his pale pink lips opened and closed in a soft tone, which looked indescribably gentle.

Qu Moyu’s heart thumped a few times. His omega was coaxing their child to sleep. Such a picture deserves all the warm and beautiful descriptions in the world.

As Qiuqiu’s cry faded, Shen Dai breathed a sigh of relief. He sat down beside the bed, constantly releasing pheromones to comfort his child while watching the little baby fall asleep peacefully.

Qu Moyu was so far away that he couldn’t see Qiuqiu even with his neck stretched. Shen Dai still turned his back to himself. As an alpha father, he was more and more eager to participate. So he couldn’t help asking in a low voice, “Is he asleep?”

Shen Dai turned his face and gave Qu Moyu a cold look, the meaning was self-evident.

“Uh, let him sleep. I’ll go out first.” Qu Moyu went out in despair. He decided to try to take a closer look at Qiuqiu tomorrow when he was awake. After buying so many toys, there might be something that Qiuqiu will like.

When he went downstairs, he saw the childcare nanny was chatting with Uncle Heng. Qu Moyu glanced at her and motioned her to come over.

The two walked aside and Qu Moyu said, “I have read your resume. You have been a paediatric nurse for more than ten years.”

The nanny smiled and said, “Yes, Mr. Qu.” This is where she has an advantage over ordinary childcare nanny that she can enter such a wealthy family.

“Okay.” Qu Moyu nodded, “You can help me pump some Qiuqiu’s gland fluid, so that it won’t be discovered by Shen Dai.”

The nanny was stunned.

“Is it possible to do it at home?” Just like drawing blood, plunging a needle into the gland to extract it, at least that’s what Qu Moyu knows. He was not sure if it can be done on a baby.

The nanny said hesitantly: “Yes.” She asked, “Mr. Qu, can you tell me what it is for? I need to know the amount of extraction and how to store it.”

“To measure the pheromone level.” Qu Moyu’s eyes sank as his thoughts were surging. He was going to take Qiuqiu’s gland fluid to the hospital he invested in for testing. If it was A-class, it would be better. Otherwise, the Qu family wouldn’t even give Shen Dai a straight eye.

***

Qu Moyu went to the company for a meeting in the afternoon. When he got home, it was past dinner time. He took off his suit jacket and handed it to Aunt Lan and asked, “How did Ah Dai eat today? The nutritionist gave him the meal. Does he like it?”

Aunt Lan said: “Ah Dai said he likes it. But you know he is not a picky eater. Even if he doesn’t like it, he wouldn’t say it. I observed that he probably thought the old duck broth was a little greasy but he still drank it. He ate a small bowl of meat and vegetables, as well as a bowl of rice. The overall appetite was not too much but not too little.”

“What did the nutritionist say?”

“He said that Ah Dai didn’t take care of himself well after giving birth and he was very tired. Now, he is relatively weak, but he has a good foundation. As long as he eats well, sleeps well, feels good, and cooperates with some exercise, he will gradually get better.”

Thinking of Shen Dai’s thin appearance, Qu Moyu felt uncomfortable: “Make him fatter as soon as possible.”

“Master, I think you can consult a doctor about something.”

“What’s the matter?”

Aunt Lan whispered: “I asked a little today. Ah Dai has never been in estrus since he gave birth to Qiuqiu. Omega usually will be in estrus within two or three months after giving birth. This estrus is helpful to indicate that all the functions of the body have recovered. If he does not get an estrus for more than three months, it proves that the body is not very good and needs to see a doctor.” She finally said, her expression darkened, “This is what I knew when I was taking care of your mother. She was at that time… not very good……”

Qu Moyu’s face changed. His mother was depressed after giving birth and suffered great physical damage. Later, she never conceived a child again. As for whether she was unwilling or unable to become pregnant again, he did not know. He only knew that his father and mother were a couple who were married, ‘marked’ and bundled grudges, love and hate for each other. they torture each other in a long life. If it was not for the mother who gave birth to an S-class alpha like him, his father would never accept that he has only one child in his life.

“Aunt Lan, I understand.” Qu Moyu said, “Don’t tell him these things.”

“Of course, young master.”

“Is he still in Qiuqiu’s room?”

“Yes.”

Qu Moyu went upstairs. Aunt Lan’s hesitant, small voice came from behind: “Master, please be good to Ah Dai.”

Qu Moyu walked to the door of the room, knocked twice and then opened the door.

The nanny was playing with her cell phone while Shen Dai was reading. They were both sitting on the sofa beside the crib.

The nanny stood up, pointed to the crib and whispered, “The young master is asleep.”

Shen Dai also put down the book, as if to prevent Qu Moyu from coming to wake Qiuqiu up again.

Qu Moyu stretched out his hand towards Shen Dai: “Qiuqiu is sleeping. You should go back to our room to rest.”

Shen Dai stared blankly at Qu Moyu’s hand, but did not move.

“Ah Dai, let’s go.”

Of course Shen Dai knew that he couldn’t sleep here, because the nanny would be sleeping here. And also because Qu Moyu wouldn’t let him. But he didn’t want to be with Qu Moyu…

The nanny lowered her head. She didn’t look at them when she shouldn’t and didn’t ask when she shouldn’t. But the atmosphere was really embarrassing.

“Ah Dai.” Qu Moyu called his name again and said softly, “Be good.”

Shen Dai stood up abruptly, walked quickly to the door, crossed Qu Moyu, and went out directly.

Qu Moyu chased after a few steps: “Don’t be angry.”

Shen Dai lowered his head and did not speak.

Qu Moyu took Shen Dai’s hand and walked upstairs.

As soon as he entered Qu Moyu’s bedroom, Shen Dai’s hair stood up. Everything here has been restored as before and the traces of destruction when Qu Moyu and himself spent the susceptible period here are long gone. But those memories are still fresh in his mind. Those sounds of violence, chaos, sweetness, and pain. Fragments of the paintings all rushed into his mind the moment he stepped into this room full of the smell of ebony wood pheromones, reminding him of a lot of things he didn’t want to recall.

It seems that all kinds of emotions between him and Qu Moyu have erupted in this bedroom. He has cried, laughed, screamed, begged, explained, and was accused. The entanglements between them are the biggest sins in his life. So this room carries the heaviest sin. It is the place he thought he would never set foot on again in his life. But now he seems to be trapped in it.

Qu Moyu noticed Shen Dai’s stiffness and naturally he also vividly remembered those good and bad memories. He said softly, “If you don’t want to sleep in this room, we’ll change it. But you still have to sleep together with me.”

Shen Dai withdrew his hand, unwilling to reveal his fear. He said coldly, “Whatever.”

Qu Moyu took Shen Dai into his arms and dropped a few gentle kisses on his forehead: “Listen to me, Ah Dai. I really want to have sex with you. I want to have sex with you every day. But I don’t want to force you. I promise to give you the best experience, just like before. Can you accept it? Hmm? Okay?”

Shen Dai remained silent.

Qu Moyu raised his chin and kissed his lips: “Ah Dai, I really miss you. Do you miss me?”

Shen Dai’s heart was trembling. He had been so deeply immersed in Qu Moyu’s tenderness that he actually had not seen his pretence. He couldn’t extricate himself. It is not until he sees the person’s true face that he knows which side of Qu Moyu a person can touch depends entirely on whether it is useless, useful or harmful to Qu Moyu. His ‘relationship’ with Qu Moyu, which happened to be such a gradual process. So he saw that Qu Moyu was polite and distant to him at first and then he was pampered and rewarded like a pet and he finally turned his face ruthlessly. He came face to face with his cruelty.

Now he is ‘useful’ to Qu Moyu again. Even if he just wants to sleep with him. He will no longer be confused by Qu Moyu’s ‘tenderness’, because he has seen the bloody coldness behind it. It can all come from the same person.

“I really miss you and I really like you.” Qu Moyu stroked Shen Dai’s soft hair, “Now that you’re back, let us start over.”

Shen Dai was held in Qu Moyu’s arms, but his body was still cold. He suddenly realized that after experiencing so many painful tortures from those he once loved deeply, his greatest emotion towards Qu Moyu was not hatred. But it was fear.

It was the fear that he was powerless and irresistible when facing Qu Moyu. The fear that he was severely suppressed from all sides. The fear that he knew that he would be bruised over and over but he had nowhere to escape.

He was afraid of Qu Moyu. And he was especially afraid that Qu Moyu would in fact treat him well.

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Next update: 2022.07.20

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*Translator’s note: You know it’s that feeling when you hope that someone you love will love you back and you were full of delusions about that person and then you realise that that person will never love you and then you’re heartbroken beyond repair. But now that that person is back and trying to win you over, you are afraid of giving in to the same delusions which had broken you before. It was that fear. At least in my opinion, that was what SD was afraid of. And I know how that feels. -K

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  1. athy says:

    alright alright now it is enough, i m jumping into the novel kicking QMY out and taking shen dai and the baby, i will marry him now.

    1. Awwwwwww…….take all my blessings….be happy with SD…I really want him and Qiuqiu to be happy!!

      1. Taro says:

        Same!!! It’s so hard to wish for Qu Moyu happiness with them, after seeing how he treat Ah Dai QAQ
        Ah Dai is a possession to him rather than a living being with his own free will. It is suffocating. I normally like possessive gong who may or may not have other negative traits, but qu moyu just make me so sad TT

    2. kin0monogatari says:

      Yes. Please marry him.

  2. Phoenix says:

    Translator-nim will Qiuqiu’s pheromone level be revealed in the next chapter?

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      It will be revealed in much much later chapters hehe

  3. Lana says:

    Спасибо за перевод.
    Я думаю что ребенок будет альфа S 😁ну по крайней мере я надеюсь на это.

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      Hahahah. You guessed right.

  4. How does that disgusting alpha still dare to force Shen Dai to submit?? I really want to curse and want to beat this disgusting alpha till all his bones are broken!! He deserves 1k slaps by my slipper!! Ughhhh…… I am so angry

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      1k slaps coming!!!

  5. Nike says:

    So. QM heard – and UNDERSTOOD – SD has a depression. And he decided he should fuck him? I really want to kill him. I never hated fictional character so much. And i really hope SD will find good alpha (NOT QM!!!!)

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      Hahahaha OMG I’m the same. I also never hated a fictional character so much before. Other MLs from SQC before QMY were still….ummm forgivable?

    2. Lala says:

      He seemed to fear that he wouldn’t be able to keep having babies with Shen Dai cause he’s hoping on getting atleast one s class alpha out of him so he don’t have to mess around. Atleast that’s what I thought cause he thought of his father again and how Qu Shen would have never accepted having only one child if he didn’t happen to be born s class alpha. Or maybe he wanted to see if he could put Shen Dai into heat to see if he was still ok. Or maybe a bunch of different selfish and non selfish reasons. In all reality we know he also just wants to have secs with his Ah Dai…

      I really like how Shen Dai isn’t giving in easily at all, strong omega! I’m also glad QMY has been pretty restrained when it comes to that too.

  6. Slappy says:

    I know the feeling when you let your guard down a little and that person betrays you over and over, SD deserves better but QMY has never lost a battle.
    Thanks for the update ☺️

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      SD really deserves better…

  7. Thanks for the update! says:

    I guess SD’s love for that jerk was like an addiction, you know how bad it is but you can’t help but want more each every single time…after you quit, you’ll get out of that sweet dream only to see your sweet dream was a nightmare in disguise,then you FEAR tremendously facing the source of addiction, fearful of what might happen if you’d drown yourself again… it’s like they’re robbing you of freedom

    1. LazyBonez says:

      I agree. That kind of feelings sucks and I know it first hand. It will really test your endurance.

    2. kin0monogatari says:

      OMG that is so true. The freedom is lost. If not physical freedom then the freedom of your mind is lost.

  8. Mier says:

    If a person fears instead of hates after such tragedy, then he must be kind. Well to hate should be normal too, so kinder?
    To be honest I was hoping Qiuqiu have the same pheromone level as Ah Dai, so we can see whether Qu Moyu will really protect his son, at least for Ah Dai’s sake.
    Ah Dai already prove he’s amazing despite his pheromone level, but I don’t held much regard towards the S-class alpha ability to remembering details, so that’s that.
    He didn’t even know how much of a jerk he was, and still is, and thought throwing some money and a few sorry was enough to compensate Ah Dai.

    1. Nonchi says:

      It would be a brave writer who did that but so much more satisfying to read. Perhaps their second child can be female S class.

    2. kin0monogatari says:

      I agree with you. SD is really amazing. We can’t discriminate people according to their pheromone level (in ABO case) or gender. We should just appreciate them for their true ability. QMY is stupid in that sense, though. Wait for Madam Qu to teach him.

  9. LazyBonez says:

    I declare myself as cutie Qiuqiu’s godmother. Ah Dai, honey come here. Leave that scumbag and live at my house near the shore and enjoy the sun.

    *Finally able to catch up some chaps phew! Dang work! Disrupts my reading flow hence I’m late*

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      Aaaa… Work is hectic for me too. T.T
      Hope this Qiuqiu’s grandma will have a good day…hehe

      1. LazyBonez says:

        Hope you have a good day as welll💓💓💓

  10. Taro says:

    Feels so bad for Shen Dai. To feel so helpless and trapped. I know some people hate Qu Moyu’s mother but she probably went through similar trauma as ah dai is going through. She seem to relate to Shen dai the most in the book. She after all was forced to get rid of her child, married, submit to an alpha that forced all that on her, then gave birth to his son. Her son too but after going through all, I’m not surprised she had postpartum depression and has difficulty connecting with her own child.

    1. kin0monogatari says:

      True that. So Qu Shen is the head of all bastards then!

  11. With L says:

    I agree, SD is scared to be trapped/tricked again by his kindness because he knows that QMY’s kindness has a price and he already paid such a huge price.

  12. Desuma says:

    OK I don’t know how this ends and I haven’t read any spoilers but what I fervently wish is that SD discovers himself to be a Superior Omega, is able to consolidate his “power” and winds up OWNING QMY! And QMY accepts this and in fact, as some powerful men discover, it is actually a relief to give up control. Hahahahaha 🤣

  13. Lala says:

    “I promise to give you the best experience just like before.”
    YEAH RIGHT! All the times Qu MoYu slept with him seemed violent or angry more than anything. I doubt it was the best for Shen Dai.

  14. NovelStalker says:

    I don’t know if it’s the same fear but I also feel fear before.
    The feeling that when you let your guard down, soften your hearts and accepts that person again but in the end will hurt you again and this time you don’t know if you can still withstand the pain. 😭 The feeling that what if you can’t withstand it and choose to give up and end it all. What will happen to the people you cared about? 🙁

  15. Fujiwara says:

    Urrgghh every time QMY touches SD I want to 🤢 🤮 🤮 I dont kow how SD is able to stand it, I would already be passed out, SD is so strong

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